It was about a year ago that i smoked spice aka synthetic marijuana. I’m 17 years old, female. I was at this guys house with a couple of friends. we were just smoking hookah until this random dude took out some spice. Me and my best friend told him no that we didn’t wanna smoke it. but then, he started telling us how great it is. that its legal and won’t show up in your drug tests either! He also made it sound like you had to smoke more of it to get you high than natural weed. so, we figured, why not try it right! Well, what we didn’t know, were the side effects, and also that spice is meant to be burned in your room as an incense! Not smoked out of a pipe. so, we did. I just took two big hits.. And still to this day, it effects me and that marks the worst night of my life.
Right after those two hits, i started laughing uncontrollably, way more than with weed. For about 20 minutes. The laugh. wasn’t even enjoyable, it was like you were being forced to laugh. Almost to the point that i felt insane. After that, the hallucinations started to begin.
My skin felt like there were actual waves going thru it. It was like your vision, was your thoughts. you couldnt really see what was infront of you, or at least pay attention. Not only that, but your thoughts were made up of mostly negative ones. My mood was going up and down.. I felt really bi polar or something. Like i would be really happy for about 30 seconds, then super depressed for about a minute or so. When my hallucinations got really bad, i started trying to make my way up to Heaven, but then id get pulled down to Hell. Then i started visualizing me and everybody else in the garage as really terrible people, that people hated and looked down on.
I’ve heard from the people that were around, that id be texting on my phone or something, and then freak out and throw my phone. Then i found myself on this guys counter screaming that i was going to die. And i actually wanted to. Just because it was such a horrible feeling. This guy tried taking care of me, and he literally had to hold my hand and walk me anywhere because i was uncapable. He tried giving me water. I was so thirsty, yet when i would drink, i would feel like i was drowning. Me and my best friend snapped into reality, and ran to her house. the high was still going.. I remember that we were both really scared because we thought that those guys drugged us. We didnt know what we smoked. We Layed down together scared and praying. We didnt know if we would wake up the next day, but yet we were so tired and hated the trip, so we wanted to go to sleep. We fell asleep praying and crying.
The next day, i woke up early in the morning. The high was gone for the most part. I had a terrible headache and it felt like the waves were still going throughout my skin and body. Just not nearly as intense. The overall high lasted about 10-15 hours. The next day we did some reasearch, and asking around. It was infact spice aka synthetic marajuana. Still to this day, i am not the same.
The long term affects arent enjoyable. None of them were. I consider myself lucky because i see people who die from this, or get hospitalized or even paralyzed! I used to enjoy smoking natural marijuana. Now i hate it. Not only are my highs different and bad, but i view smoking or any drugs at all period different now. Since then, i would never do any drug ever again. Like i said, the long term effects suck too… I feel stupid sometimes because i can’t remember things as well. I have become so forgetful. I feel like I’m not myself anymore. Which in a way, might be good for me because all I’ve done is grow since the insident. I have been doing everything i can to better myself, my life, and the choices i make. But still, i feel empty. Like depersonalized. I dont feel right or like myself. Its a strange feeling that sucks. Its hard to explain until you go thru it yourself.
I just hope that my story can reach out to others who are considering smoking spice. I regret it so much. Its a life-long regret. And these long-term effects might be something that i have to live with for the rest of my life. So please, be aware, and think twice before doing this sick drug..