I and my boyfriend have both been co-dependent on the shit for a while now.
I’m currently 7 months pregnant and just got the will to stop.
I’ve told my gynecologist about my addiction and ask him for a drug test just to help me stop.
I’ve been doing research and the stuff is more addicting than crack.
It’s sad that how long we have been addicted and because both of us have been making it 2 times harder to stop.
I know it’s sad to say but I’ve smoked this crap a good amount during my pregnancy and admit I was addicted and I will regret the choices I’ve made for the rest of my life.
I now realize that I have to be stronger than the drug itself.
He was recently diagnosed with anxiety and has to further go more testing to see if there are any further mental issues (manic depressive, bi-polar).
He now takes Xanax for his anxiety and I think this crap is counteracting with his medication because I’ve had to sober up just to care for him when he smokes.
His brother is addicted as well and contributes to the problem.
He brainwashes him into thinking that he’s ok when he’s on the shit but has not.
He’s attempting to get physical and could barely stand up when he smokes the crap.
I don’t mean to be a hypocrite but I’ve stopped and really wish he would see the damage it’s doing to him the way I’ve realized the damage it has done to me and my life.
I’ve lost a really great job over it, family, and shelter at times.
I’m done with it.
I’ve told him I want to seek further help and he doesn’t really seem to be too worried about it because his excuse is that he begged me for so long, so why now should he listen to a sober me.
It’s sad and hurts but really I’ve realized the crap is no good.
You are mixing chemicals in your body that don’t belong there.
I’ve apologized and apologized for all the smoking and the past problems it has caused.
My aunt even noticed the problem in the past when I lived with her and she begged me and him to stop.
One day, I was scared he will smoke and never come out of it because his brother assures him he’s ok, after a while after smoking it he thinks it’s ok.
So, now my only goal is to completely stop cold turkey and admit the habit or leave.
It’s sad we have a kid on the way and I beg God to forgive me for all I’ve done and helped him because I want our son to live a happy healthy life away from this stuff.
If anyone has any advice on the subject, please help.