I originally started smoking spice when I used to live in Maryland.
I moved into a duplex and the person below me gave me some to try.
Not realizing how powerful this stuff is.
I loaded my bong and took a huge puff.
I instantly began to freak out without knowing where I was and pretty close to calling 911.
However, I eventually came down and didn’t use the rest of the night but continued to use spice here and there in MD we had stuff called “Bizzaro” and “Zero Gravity”.
I continued to smoke spice mixed with weed.
Then I moved down to Tampa Florida in 2013 and found that Tampa was in the middle of a spice epidemic with smoke shops and sketchy gas stations selling it everywhere.
I continued to smoke spice on a daily basis.
I figured that it was very cheap ($10 bags) and also undetectable on urine tests.
The spice in Florida compared to Maryland was a lot stronger, but it wasn’t consistent.
What I mean is some bags were powerful and others didn’t even get me high.
After much experience, I realized the psychotic side effects were just in my head and I literally would have to tell myself I was ok.
However, the withdrawals are really comparable to those of heroin or other hard drugs.
Every morning I had to vomit upon waking up.
I also had very nasty and unpleasant bowel movement while smoking the drug.
If I didn’t have anything to smoke I would literally be searching for change to come up with 10 dollars even resorted to pawning stuff just to get a bag.
Up to that point, I knew I had a problem but figured everyone has their way of taking off the edge and this was mine.
Recently all of the sources I had got raided or busted so I had to find a new connection.
This new spice, I found was by far the strongest most dangerous substance I ever have put in my body.
Not only did they sell the regular spice in bags but they also sold the pure chemical that is used to make the spice.
It was a white powdery substance and I dipped cigarettes tips in it and smoke about as much that could fit into the letter O on the screen.
Immediately I felt my body heat up and my eyes felt on fire.
The next thing I know I wake up on the floor screaming at my friend to shoot me in the head, I felt that my world was literally over and I needed to die.
I am not exaggerating one bit.
To be totally honest if I would’ve been alone and had access to a weapon I honestly don’t believe I would be writing this story.
I kept screaming to shoot me in the head for about 10 minutes begging my friend just to do it, Before that my friend said I stood up and literally fell out and started to look like I was having a seizure with uncontrollable body movements. Never again I told myself….. Until today, I decided to smoke some regular spice but it was from the same place that has the chemical.
The next thing I know I’m screaming at the top of my lungs for my friend to shoot me in the head saying I’m ready I’m ready.
I have a concussion on the back of my head and a huge black and blue bruise on my back from where I fell out onto the ground after standing up.
Both of these psychotic episodes occurred with me having no control or even a memory of what happened.
But the thing that freaks me out is that I basically had the same exact terrifying experiences involving me being totally ready to completely end my life.
I have never seriously even though about suicide.
Yes don’t get me wrong I have had my good and bad days but nothing like this.
My advice to people is to smoke weed and stay away from this garbage bag.
Obviously, whoever is making this stuff has no care for human life. Also, if anyone has had an experience like this and would like to talk about it, you can email me at [email protected],com