I got put on probation because I was selling heroin and meth and eventually got busted.
So about a year and a half into my probation, I can’t help but play around with my addiction a little bit.
Eventually I get busted for a dirty UA.
I did my sanction, got out and relapsed again.
Well, after doing my second sanction and getting a lot of counseling, rehab,and more drug testing. eventually I stop playing with drugs and I think I’m good.
One day, I’m at a job working day labor and one of my coworkers who is also working day labor with me needs a ride home.
So I give him a ride, and he asked me to stop by a smoke shop to pick up some spice.
Me being the curious person I am, I start to ask a lot of questions.
Now, I’ve experimented in jail, but it was only a couple of hits or so and I got pretty stoned – so it was okay.
Well this guy goes in to get his spice, and I go in with him because I am into pipes, hookahs etc.
While in the smoke shop, I decide to buy a $5 container of the 50. My coworker gives me advice and tells me to sprinkle a little bit over some tobacco, because I have no tolerance and it would be overwhelming.
So after doing that for a while and being pretty content with the results, I up my habit to pure spice in a joint, and then I went to the 180 and eventually the 300.
One day, we go camping and I take my spice with me. One night before posting up in my tent with my girlfriend, I take a couple of hits and freak the hell out.
I then decide not to touch the stuff anymore.
About three days later, I take a hit thinking if I just do a little bit it’ll be fine.
So that’s the beginning of my habit.
After about 3 months, looking like a zombie and not recognizing myself in the mirror, I decide to quit
But little did I know all the things I was going to go through.
This story isn’t to share my withdrawal symptoms, because plenty have done that already.
This is how I broke the habit.
When I was going through my withdrawals, I read all these stories thinking it would help but they only helped very little.
Although they did give me tons of strength to quit – so for that, I thank you guys.
Here’s how I did it:
First of all, my girlfriend is very anti-drug; because of that, I felt obligated to make sure I succeeded in quitting.
All you guys know how hard that can be, so what I did was I bought me a 50 to make the withdrawals easier.
I would wait until I started to throw up, and then I would take a couple hits. And then I would wait until I threw up again. Then I would take a couple of hits again, so as to lower my tolerance.
Well when I tried to quit again, it was still hard so I didn’t think it was going to work.
To my surprise, I went two days without it and only threw up a very little bit on the third day, though it was bad so I had to take a hit when I didn’t want to.
So I’m tapering myself off little by little. I didn’t think this would ever end.
Well one day, I decided enough is enough and I stopped.
After a week of not smoking, I only threw up a couple of gags of phlegm.
I realized: I did it!
Please guys take my advice: if you need help getting off of it, try doing that. It makes it a lot easier and gives you hope that it is not impossible to get off of this stuff.
Please get off, whatever it takes to do it. Please do it.
Good luck, and don’t be afraid to ask God to help you get through it. He was there for me.