Spice first came into my life when I went into a local smoke shop to buy some papers. The shop owner approached me and showed me a new product they just got in.
Needless to say, I bought the biggest bag I could afford, simply because it was way more than I would have gotten if I was to buy some real weed.
I went home and packed my bong. The first hit was all it took to have me hooked.
The next 4 years were very repetitive. I would pass out with a pipe on my chest, wake up and finish what I passed out smoking.
The drug was so addictive I stole from my family to support my habits. Spice had changed my thought process so much that I ended up putting my father in the hospital by bashing him in the head with a baseball bat after a simple argument that I blew way out of proportion in my own mind. My father was smoking spice with me up until this point, but after the head trauma anytime he tried smoking it he went into violent seizures.
After a few months, I started having seizures myself.
Even with all the noticeable differences in my health and thoughts, I dug deeper into my addiction. It got to the point that I was smoking 30 grams a day. I would never leave my room, just lay in bed and smoke until iI passed out, wake up and smoke until I passed out again and this went on for months.
The final straw for me was when my little brother told me he wished I would just die, that way he didn’t have to see me slowly kill myself with spice. I decided it was time to grow up and leave the “fakie” behind.
It was New Years Day, 2014. I threw my pipes away broke my phone (to lose contact with other users), deleted my social media pages and stayed with my grandmother in the country to minimize the odds of seeing anyone I knew.
After only 3 months of sobriety, I felt that I had moved on from it.
I have been spice free for about a year and a half now. Every day is still a struggle, but I now live a natural life.
I’m not saying it will help you, but I switched back to real weed and it doesn’t compare as far a being high goes but it is a natural alternative albeit an illegal one. But if you need a crutch like I do, real weed really helps to stave off the cravings.
No one person is perfect, we have all made mistakes, but I’m here to say you can quit.
Weaker people have done it.