I don’t even know where to begin with this…
I started to smoke spice in late 2010, and at first it was just people i used to hang with that had spice, then it quickly became “yo where do I get this shit?”
And that is where my spice addiction started.
I began to buy it from a local tobacco outlet.
I was happy to find something so cheap that got me so high. I didn’t think of addiction at all.
I started off with just being irritated and mad I couldn’t find spice.
Jump a year forward, and here I am driving an hour and a half to get spice. At that time I knew I was addicted.
I had yet to experience any withdrawal symptoms still.
I eventually couldn’t find spice at all.
My next resort was to ORDER IT OFF THE INTERNET.
Yes, I ordered tons of spice of the internet.
The very first bag I ran out of that I got from from the internet caused me to have the WORST withdrawal symptoms you could think of.
I quickly started to get sweats, very irritated.
Couple of hours later, it got worse.
I would go from hot to cold to sweating every 5 minutes. I had diarrhea. I wouldn’t sleep for days. I wouldn’t eat for days.
I would be so dehydrated, but I couldn’t do anything about it because I didn’t want others to know what was wrong.
I eventually ordered another bag.
Yes, I went through all of this and STILL was dying for more!
I kept this cycle going until my 6th time withdrawing and detoxing from spice.
I couldn’t do it anymore.
I was mentally broken down and physically.
I’ve been clean from this stuff for almost a year, and I wouldn’t dare touch it again.
I feel for all spice addicts.
I hope you get the help you need.
I know exactly what it’s like and have faith in you all – and I know everybody with spice addiction will get through this.
No matter what anybody says, you are all strong and loved and have loved ones.
There are people who care and people who will listen.
I wish you all the best of luck.