I wish I never tried it; I’m still struggling to fight the Spice demon. I just relapsed again for the umpteenth time. I can do so well and not use until I get a text from past smokers saying hey I can get some.
That’s all it takes; then I use all my money and any resources to get it. The awful thing is that I don’t want it really because I’ve been in the hospital twice for overuse, three times going through horrific withdrawal at home for days laying on the floor so sick, can’t move, can’t eat or drink just wish you were dead.
My husband was hours from dying because we went so long using and not eating and smoking the resin god its way worse.
Have to lie to the er tell them it’s food poisoning, so ashamed, but soon as I know I have access to it, I want it, and I don’t .you take a puff and pass out, I’ve have fell head first off my bed twice, really hurt myself.
Had the TV about take me out if it wasn’t for my hub and wouldn’t haven’t of stopped it from crushing my head. Yeah, my husband’s potassium level was at 0. If we had played there another day, my husband wouldn’t be here.
The sad thing knowing everything it do we still use it. I’m done this time I’ve been having chest pains this time, and my hands aren’t working like they should, I can’t grab tightly. I hope this is enough to stop my wanting to use.
My husband can’t quit once we start, so hell gets sicker by smoking the resin. I won’t smoke it; it’s worse than the product itself.
The chemical must change once heated. I’m glad we’ve run out of money, so I have to withdraw, its not as bad as all the others but the being scared of the world is passing now its anxiety and severe shaking.
No appetite, but I know if I don’t eat it, I’ll never go away. Please don’t even try this stuff, it’s no fun, it’s not a group drug, it’s like heroin, but heroin addicts say its way worse than that. So, please if you want to enjoy life smoke the real deal, not the fake.
Or find something else to do. I know it’s hard I’ve repeatedly failed, I have to learn to get control of my addiction and stop letting it rule me. I’ve let it use me for five years now, and I’m so sick of it.
I could have so much; I’ve wasted tens of thousands of dollars on this shit we were smoking 50-100 a day that’s five to ten grams of that crap per day. This time we’d only made it to three to five grams, but it would have climbed.
It’s like ten to twenty a gram. I’m so sickened with this, that’s why I’ve got to quit and to hope with me quitting he does too. I realize how much I like life now that I see spice taking everything from me and leaving my adult kid’s motherless cause she off.
No, I can’t do that to them. I’m going to stay healthy! I did go bad to weed, but I need to eat and sleep. I know a drug, but pot is being medical for me. I’m sorry I’m ashamed of myself after I’ve read this. I sure hope this turns someone from using it.