It all happened on March 2nd, 2017. I’m a high school student, and we’re destined to do a lot of stupid stuff. I usually say no or go the other way or don’t skip. But this time was different. I was just fine and walked to Price Chopper to get the Takis that I been craving so badly.
As I was walking back to the school, I ran into a couple of friends who I know smokes a lot. We went to Sonic, they got some drinks (slushies), and we walked back to Price Chopper to get a lighter. I haven’t smoked for a very long time, so I knew that next time would be kind of unusual.
But not like this! Honestly, I had a feeling, and something told me not to go but ignored the feeling. So when we got there, it took a while to light up, but we did, and we did a little circle. The first hit was cold, but I decided to take another hit after that and this time I inhaled, and I felt it filling my lungs.
I started coughing uncontrollably and was laughing like it is fun and game. Next thing you know I think I blacked out and when woke up, feeling very weird. It appeared like some boomerang effect followed my every move.
It felt so strange, and at that moment I forgot what life felt. I felt like I couldn’t get out. My heart was racing, and that’s all I felt in my trance. One second, we were standing behind the trash cans. The next we were walking the street, the next we were walking to the doors, the next I was in the cafeteria, and lastly I was in class.
As I sat there, I kept having the boomerang effect feel, and every time I moved, it was like a domino effect and started seeing everybody in my effect. At first, I couldn’t speak… the next I couldn’t see color there was a white background it’s like nobody noticed me.
I tried to stand up, but it took forever too. Then after that, I got the strength to talk and called a girl who I know. She helped me to the restroom. I remember her coming to get me in this slow domino effect walk. Then we were in the hallway, then in the bathroom.
After that everything slowly started to get together and I was wondering why this was happening to me. I was trying to grasp on to the meaning of life. I began to return to reality hardly. But I was confused to what this world was. I started trying to name my nieces and trying to remember my life. I splashed some water on my face and reminded my friend leaving the restroom.
The next thing you know I somehow got back to class and my other friend brought me to the restroom too and told me to take a drink of water before we go upstairs to the counselor’s office. So we somehow ended up there, and on the way, she told me to tell them I was having an anxiety attack. But they didn’t believe me of course, so they made me take all the under influenced tests and so I did.
I failed, and they said I had a heart rate of 140 when it’s supposed to be 80. At that moment I didn’t care what consequences I got or what happened to me when I got out the trance (JDC, state, etc.) I just wanted it to be over.
It was so weird that I can’t explain. But I was trapped, and the feeling of being trapped and not being able to get rid of a feeling you don’t like is the worst feeling ever. But now it’s over and I believe that was a warning to change my life. I feel pure.
I prayed, and I prayed and kept asking God to help. The longer I stayed there, the more I wanted to give up, but I didn’t. I kept praying… Kept fighting… kept believing. I was scared.
Nobody should EVER have to experience that!! I’m serious. I will never smoke again. I will never do any drugs. I want to live through Christ, and I don’t want that to affect the rest of my life I just want to do right and what I need to do.