Me and my boyfriend and a couple of friends have been smoking spice for five years straight.
It started with just one bag of “head rush” or, as we call it, the red bag…
Ughhhhh man this has messed us up.. We were good parents… We were.
I feel so bad that I put spice before my kids. Who does that?
For anyone smoking spice it’s true: nothing except getting the next bag matters. We would wake up every two hrs to smoke while asleep and every 30 min when awake… We wouldn’t even wanna leave the house cuz all that means is we gunna not be able to smoke.
We would fight about it.. And every morning, you wake up vomiting if you don’t hit it as soon as you open your eyes… I would even wake up with the lips in my hand hit the bowl and go back to sleep… It true if you dont have it you won’t be able to sleep or eat or even think straight.
We quit cause my 2 of our friends are permanently retarded. I hate to use that word, but there’s no other way of describing them. It’s so scary that, Fuck yes, it has us scared as Fuck.
My man is 300 lbs 6’2 and has been having seizures. But he still would smoke, and I’d be right there next to him. Now that he quit, he hasn’t – well we haven’t – eaten in three days.
We’ve been drinking boost and bananas for all the body cramps that we get from head to toe. I was side 22, now I’m in my daughter’s jeans they’re size 14.
I’m severely malnourished… I’m always cold and sweating… My hair has been falling out so bad that hair is everywhere.. We vomit all day… It’s been really bad…
But we’ve been each other’s support, and we’re doing this so our kids can have their momma and daddy back…Fuck man what have I done….
Please I’m begging everyone not to smoke spice, it’s dangerous. I wish I would have never tried it. It has ruined our lives… Slowly, we are gunna get back on top..
Pray for God to help you… I have, and I’m putting me and my man in his hands.
God help us.