I started using synthetic (we call it posh) December 2018 regularly. It was such an intense body high we always compared it to heroin and as fast as crack. I started using to avoid drug tests.
I’ll keep this short I had multiple seizures, loss of motor movements, loss of vision, stopped breathing, and thought I was dying. And that was the good shit. If I saw someone else go pale, sink into their seat, and blackout next hit was mine. Hallucinations came with the blackouts, so it was fun to dream.
When I didn’t have it, I was puking, sweating, diarrhea, pissed off at everything until I could manipulate my way to another bag. I ended up in rehab because I became severely dehydrated, had tremors, nausea, insomnia, and my probation found out.
My dad told me when he took me to the hospital, I looked possessed because of the tremors, and today, he’s so glad my demons are gone. I’m 101 days clean from synthetic marijuana, and I still get cravings.
I want to numb my mind so hard where I’m physically not able to even think. Again, I’m learning through NA and my higher power that I can feel emotions, and there’s a better way to live. Not sure if the cravings ever go away, but at least it’s not an obsession today.
I’ve robbed people blind for this fast-acting drug, seen people stabbed over this drug, seen people scream at the top of their lungs like a demon possession because of this drug. People need to know how strong it is and how it will destroy your effing life.
If you or anyone you know is using this drug, seek help immediately and remember tough love is still love because one-off hit can end your life. People have jumped off balconies in prison because of this drug.
A man killed his whole family because of this drug. Right hand on the Bible no lie, on my soul, if I’m lying, then I’m dying, this shit happens. Get. Help.
I’m a 24-year-old girl who should have never had to experience these things given my background, but I did it for this drug. Now happily clean, working a program enjoying my life to the fullest. Thank you for reading.