One day I was smoking actual Marijuana with my two friends, we were pretty gone, and my father came over so we had a few beers with him. (I only ended up having 3, which is nothing.) I was invited over to my friends house to just hang out you know, I was offered a couple of bongs of Synthetic marijuana, that got brought from a adult spice store.
The synthetic that I had was called ‘Mojo‘ to my recollection. I was feeling fine, just drunk, stoned and relaxed before having a hit of Mojo, but about 5 minutes after the hit of Mojo I wanted more so my friend packed me another one, and doing it was the worst decision of my life. Not even 5 minutes after my 2nd hit of mojo was I totally unresponsive, I felt like death warmed up. I was sitting on the end of my friends bed and someone said to me ‘are you okay?’ I could respond verbally but I just nodded (I think) I didn’t want anyone to worry about me. Every moment I took, like turning my head or lifting a finger sounded a loud bang clash in my head as if someone had dropped metal on the ground, it was terrible I just could not handle it, I stood up very slowly, stumbling from the bed into the wall and quietly (I don’t know how) but I exited the room without anyone noticing. I didn’t want anyone to see me like this and I was SURE it was time for me, i was SURE I was going to die, so I wanted to go peacefully, because there was no undoing what I had done.
So I went into the lounge room, trying to keep alert, because I didn’t want to die, so I thought going in there and turning on the television would help, give me something to concentrate on. Alls I wanted to do was lay down, but I told myself if I did, I’d surely pass away in my sleep, so I propped myself up as straight as possible on the couch trying to concentrate on a show which was honestly just scaring the shit out of me. I started having extreme hallucinations, like the characters off lord of the rings was actually in the lounge with me, I tried pushing them away, before collapsing on my side on the couch.
I had received message after message from my boyfriend who knew something was up, and didn’t want me going out in the first place, I guess I should of listened. ‘Oi are you okay???’ Most messages read, I tried my hardest to reply but I couldn’t even hold my phone, I wanted to tell him that I was dying, and that I loved him and that I loved my sister but I was so gone that I couldn’t even hold my phone.
I laid on the couch, slowly stopping breath, peacefully laying, everything went black, and I swear to God I saw my life flash before my eyes, this was happening for about 10 minutes, apparently people had come over and walked passed me and were loud, (I got told the morning after) but I did not budge. I sat up randomly. I was numb, I literally had felt like I died for that time that I was down. I was scared more than anything, I stepped up onto my feet, felt as if I was floating,
I vomited in three different spots before even getting out the front door.. I was throwing up everything I had eaten, until it was just bile! So many things running through my head whilst I was throwing up, my heart starting rapidly beating, I was sweating, hallucinating, on the brink of death, I thought, and to be honest, how I was feeling, I wanted to be dead, I didn’t want to feel that feeling anymore. I laid down on the grass next to my vomit and passed out again momentarily before getting awoken by everyone around me.
There was so many feelings of regret and wanting to die that night I can’t even begin to explain and half of it I can’t even remember. ALSO.. I don’t remember getting home that night, absolutely no recolection, it’s not like a drunk “ohhh dude I can’t remember anything from last night!” Because you always remember something, but the fact that I could swear black and blue that I did not walk home that night and get into bed is FUCKED..
There’s something a miss there…. but I’m telling anyone who reads this!! DO NOT TAKE SYNTHETIC, because I BELIEVE I ALMOST DIED THAT NIGHT & IF I DIDNT GET UP AND THROW UP I MIGHT NOT BE HERE TODAY.
AND 100% NEVER EVER MIX WITH ACTUAL WEED & ALCOHOL. worst experience of my life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Please don’t do it guys. I’m so lucky that I’m alive today, please don’t risk it.