I really feel as if my story’s are posted. My wife smoked “legal weed” to avoid dirty urine. Her grandfather died in April her cousin in law in Oct her father in Nov and her cousin in Dec and this is her “justification” I’m depressed. At first it didn’t bother me because I thought it was just weed until about a month ago. She would go to the bathroom literally every 5-10 minutes it seemed she was spending hours in there loosing track of time and her existence. The notemore she smoked the more we argued the more we argued the more we fist fight sometimes 3 times a day she broke my table my mirrors my window kicked my car threw a metal shovel at me and I still stayed not understanding the effects of spice or as she calls it SPIKE
It got so bad I hit her in the head with a Bacardi bottle trying to run and protect myself and ended up sending her to the hospital and me to jail Im 36 years OLD a Case Manager working with DV VICTIMS & DRUG ADDICTS everyday & living a double life. As a supportive wife I took her to ER PSYCH when she admitted she was using Spice I thought she was smoking crack so I drug tested her for my own piece of mind. She laughed and said “your waisting” your money” I’m not using nothing but Spike” So we find out on that day she came up positive for Me this one which is legal heroin ain’t that some sh*t? The government allowing this stuff to be sold in candy stores and no one knows there’s LEGAL DOPE in it WTF that’s the zombie like addict effects the hours of hiding in the bathroom the loss of motor skills Legal Heroin Addicts is what it is.
I’m so confused worried and stressed I love my wife truly and deeply but she had to go she calls me 15x’s a day I can’t deal with hearing her doped up so I decided today to refuse all communication for myself she always with I love you she says she will go into detox/ inpatient next week but until then I am no longer a codependent to Spike I cry everyday I even lived her funeral in my head because that’s just what spike has done Murdered My Wife. My heart goes out to those dealing with this monster/done let go & let JAH. AMEM