I am an average 30 something guy. I have had my ups and down like everyone else, and used to just drink or smoke weed on occasion to have fun with friends, nothing too serious. I got a great job that requires drug testing, so it became drinking only. Then spice came out. At first it was just to try it, party on the weekends. It didn’t agree with me at first, but quickly got used to it. After about a month or two, it became a daily thing just to get a head change if you will. This went on for about a few months, then it became a bi-hourly thing before I knew it. I hid it from everyone, people always commented that I smelt weird, but never got caught.
Flash forward 3 years, now it became a $200 a week addiction, my teeth have brown rings around them, my thumb that I used to snuff my pipe turned black and the skin on it was always peeling off. I was addicted, couldn’t sleep more than 2 hours without having to have a bowl. I developed a death sounding cough, got deep crows feet under my eyes, and was miserable every second I wasn’t high. I knew I was addicted, but thought I could quit if I really wanted to. I couldn’t. I lied to family and friends about why I looked like I was dying. I wanted to stop, I just couldn’t.
I went on vacation to a state I knew it was illegal in, and that is what forced my rehab. I mean I really wanted to stop on my own, but it took going somewhere i literally just couldn’t get it. Within 3 hours of being there, I was puking, shaking and sweating more than I have in my whole life. Luckily I was able to pawn it off as travel sickness.
The first day was horrible, couldn’t keep a single sip of water down, slept maybe 2 hours, and didn’t eat. Day 2 was better, still trouble keeping liquids in but the shaking was going away slowly. I was so mad at myself for smoking spice for so long, I wanted my freedom back. Day 3, I could drink a little but still not eating but I was sleeping 4-5 hours now. Day 4, I felt like 85% my normal pre spice self, could keep in all liquids, ate one meal and slept 6 hours. All sweating and shaking completely gone. Day 5 , I was back. Eating again, sleeping 7+ hours for the first time in 2 years at least.
It has been 14 days now, and I have no urge at all to smoke it. It is sold right down the street still, but I am going to make it. My teeth are at least 75% cleaner, my black thumb is a little yellow but its healing. My cough is gone, and my mood is pretty good. I am now having to deal with being sober, or not high all day which can be boring, but its not that bad. I really do feel happy inside, part of because it is out if my system, part because I’m doing it, I’m being sober. I know this story is not written well, but that shows I am a real, normal person. I am scared still if anyone finds out I used to smoke spice, but I’m putting this hear in hopes just 1 person can stop too. I never thought I could quit, but I did, by myself. We all mistakes, this is just a small chapter in my life that I now have back. Yes it has been only 2 weeks, but I feel like I have my whole life ahead of me again, and I’m excited. Please just try to stop, even if you can’t the first time, try. You are not alone in this fight.
I hope this story can help to let you know, if I could do it, so can you. Good luck and hang in there, I feel like a million dollars again, and so will you.
