My boyfriend has completely lost himself in this drug. His sense of time, his compassion, his caring, the things he loves. They have all disappeared along with his soul. He used to love rapping, and he would release his words and emotions straight from his heart. His spice use got progressively worse and he eventually stopped rapping, writing, and making music altogether.
As of now he is out and about, hanging around people who do not care about him. His sister and I are at a loss for words. We have tried to help…and we still have hope and faith that he can come back. He recently got out of a hospital but fell right back into spice. Maybe if I had recognized it as a simple relapse I could have helped him bounce back. But I lost hope again and I think that pushed him very far away from everyone who loves him. He has given up on himself, and he believes that he has to suffer for a reason. Maybe he does need to feel suffering. But he needs to do it in a way that will allow him to get in touch with his emotions, the way he feels without drugs.
The withdrawals from spice are more painful than I could ever imagine. How can you make somebody so headstrong see how dangerous this is and how important it is to quit this drug? He has so much potential, he is very smart, and he is a spiritual person with a love for God. Unfortunately, he began to think of Spice as God because it was the only thing that could take his pain away. I want so badly to make him see but I don’t know how. I cannot just sit by and let him die. It is not too late for him to return and live!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!