I smoked synthetics for nearly 7 years.
Before that I smoked weed but I was presented a job opportunity that required random drugged testing and the salary was too high to pass up or screw up by continuing to smoke pot.
At first I would smoke synthetics once or twice a week after work just to relax as I’m not much into drinking. My addiction escalated very quickly I went from buying a three gram bag once a week to smoking 9-12 grams a day.
My life began to revolve around smoking synthetics. I felt as if I couldn’t do anything or go anywhere without it. Smoking it and buying it turned into my only priority.
My home state of Pennsylvania outlawed it around 2014. I would drive over an hour to buy it in West Virginia but then West Virginia stopped selling in early 2016.
Somehow I was hooked up with a dude who manufactured his own at his house and I was his main source of income.
Since he knew the fact that I was highly addicted, he would front it to me knowing that I’m on my paydays and would receive 99% of my check.
I work a pretty decent job and make about 1500$ per week. My addiction made me absolutely broke. I got tired of living my life this way and decided to get clean.
At that point in time my addiction had made me extremely antisocial. I had no friends left and was too ashamed of what I had done to myself.
I completely broke ties with my dealer and told him to no longer contact me. Going daily to work had become so difficult because of the nausea. It was just feeling like hell in general. I was already skinny but the process of quitting made me look like a skeleton.
I was not able to eat without vomiting for the better part of an entire week. Even after taking sleep aids, I would only sleep a couple hours a night.
When I would sleep I would wake up and have to change my sheets because of heavy sweat. I had horrible head and body aches.
I felt as if I was driving myself crazy laying in a dark room alone. There were times that I’d hear voices. When I was able to sleep I had a very hard time discerning the vivid lucid dreams I would have.
I began searching for information similar to the information found on this page that was very comforting to me. To read stories others had posted about their experiences and difficulties following through with quitting.
There is life after addiction, I’m not proud of some of the things I’ve done and regret a lot of things but you cannot dwell on the past. But you can change and better yourself and have a better happier future for yourself and your loved ones.
I know firsthand how horrible the withdrawals are but it will get better. Your natural sleep will return as will your appetite. Most importantly, you will come back with the ability to live a happy life free of dependence of the chemicals in synthetic.
If anyone ever reads this just know your not alone and you can get clean and be happy again.