English is not my first language so if you find any grammar problem just please never mind and try to read. Yeah, the following story is mine.
I didn’t smoke even cigarette and still I don’t smoke but at the time of my high school when I was just 17 years old, I tried weed.
It was okay but then I met spice. First days are always good. Just think if you make something new it makes you feel great.
After my high school, I started going to college in my city but I kept smoking, even on the way to college and it become difficult to manage my studies.
So, I quit my first university. Later, I started working as a bartender.
I used to earn well and buy 30 packages (3g) for just my personal use.
I was smoking the whole package in 15 days or less.
When I was working as a bartender girl like call me and come to me and when there was no business, I got high all the time. I don’t even want to make love with anyone.
Just think that? That’s horrible, right? My friends changed.
If my any friend doesn’t smoke we don’t see each other because he didn’t smoke.
So, I made some new friends who all were addicted.
I worked in one bar for 3 years and earned $3500 for a month and tips too.
With that money, I only bought spice and just smoked it.
I was like walking dead, yeah my family, friends everybody had seen me but they couldn’t see what’s wrong with me.
Maybe they thought that I drink alcohol or something like that.
So, at the end of the year, I lost my job and my money got finished. Every day, I borrow money from my mother and start smoking from morning till night.
I smoke for one 45 minutes or 1 hour and then go to sleep and then smoke and again sleep.
This was my routine.
When I used to be in bed, I could feel that something is wrong.
I must quit it, but in the morning, I smoke again then again then again, it was like a circle.
One year before, I quit and worked for next year university exam and won German language translator.
But just go and started again.
So, I quit this school too and come to my hometown in my family house.
Here, I saw my all addicted friends.
They were smoking near me but I didn’t smoke.
They always smoke and I were saying that: which person is smoking, that shit is stupid even including me.
Then, later that I smoked for 2 months and now I have quitted from 2 days, but I can’t sleep and just drink only water.
I feel different but it’s done now.
If I smoke again, I can surely say that my brain will damage.
When anybody says me something, I get angry for no reason.
The first day after I quit, I was arguing with my mamma for no reason I punch /hit my room door and broke it.
My mamma was crying.
I lost 7 years of my life
I lost my all money.
I won three universities but didn’t finish even one.
I lost all my good friends
I lost my faith.
I lost my God.
I lost my mind.
My emotions were changing so fast.
You might be thinking that I am a stupid person. No, I am not! I am even smarter than you because I Quit.
I had a friend and he was like my big brother.
He is 33 years old.
He smoke all time, he can’t quit. Everybody keeps begging him and try to talk but he is not quitting.
Maybe, its sound stupid but he will soon die.
I AM BEGGİNG YOU, PLEASE İF YOU SMOKE JUST QUİT NOW.
IF U DONT SMOKE JUST DONT TRY.