My husband has a Spice addiction.
He was addicted to many other drugs in the past, but this is the worst.
He is sneaky about it; he is breaking our family apart; he uses to lie about his use.
He is a server at a restaurant and lies about his tips; he isn’t paying bills in our home, so it is all falling on me.
He goes out for hours gets high then comes back, and fights with us because we know what he has been doing.
I feel helpless, and he has no insurance, the cops tell me to place a police report on the people selling it in our town because it is illegal, but that’s like me doing their job, and I have my job to do to keep things going here at my home.
I love him, and I don’t want to lose him.
The thing is if I ask him to leave he goes to his parents, and the whole family has some drug addition, so they sweep it under the rug.
I don’t know where to turn at this point; he is almost 32 years old. He has seen a psychologist who tried to help him with his rage issues.
He did get clean for a while then started using spice, before that he was using pot and other drugs which led to meth and crack.
He says it’s only been once for those drugs, but I’m not sure when or if he realizes the truth at all anymore.
I’ve been called by the police twice saying he’s at the hospital, he robbed his boss’s petty cash to get drugs; they didn’t press charges. I almost died of pneumonia in April, and he left me alone in the hospital for three weeks while he spent our entire savings and fled to his parents when he had no more money.
How am I still so blind that I stay with him and why can’t I just give up on him and let him do whatever he wants to do? I am very lost.