Back 2011-2012 I smoked everyday when I was living alone in Little Rock Arkansas, but this time last year my step dad passed away and I moved back to my mothers house in the middle of the woods, with a little town of 425 people and one gas station. Well guess what, no more spice for me to buy, because no one around there knew of it, or didn’t care, so yep, non to find. I had the withdraw symptoms, but I got over if after awhile, then I just forgot about it mostly and didn’t care. Back at my mother’s house, I could just grow some weed in the back yard and call it good, or pick up $25/gram (cheap mexican smoke). For six months I was ok, and never thought about it again.
Well then 5 months ago I moved to Seattle WA, moved in with a friend. Well since weed is legal here, I still didn’t care about spice, I still didn’t think of it, I didn’t look for it either. One day in a smoke shop when buying a pipe, my eye caught onto a display loaded down with spice for sale, and cheap compared to what I was paying in Arkansas. Still I didn’t care to much, but now its on my mind. After I seen it in the smoke shop, it started to dwel on me and I thought of it more and more. Lets just say, 3-4 weeks ago, I broke down and bought some to try again… now HOOKED! Smoking 3-4/g daily, wishing I had more cash. I’ve pawned the only two things I had worth pawning, I’m out of money, unemployed. So, I ran out of my last 3/g bag two days ago and yesterday I started scraping for left overs and carpet creeping. I was mostly fine mentally, but physically I wasn’t doing good at all.
I’m 360 pounds and I have chronic bronchitis., I feel like I am going to die, I can’t breath, and my chest hurts and I have extreme sweating just to walk out to my car so I can go buy more spice. Two weeks I did how ever check myself into the ER for my asthma, felt like I was going to die. Now I sit here trying to get by the day to make it to the next, thinking how to make some money to go buy more. I sit here today as this is my first day with out in 3-4 weeks. So far I made it today with out, because I didn’t have any money. I hopping that my natural bad health would scare me into no wanting to smoke anymore, but its a hard fight. As of now, I’m day one into withdraws and detoxing.