I read these stories, and I’m seeing a lot of young people beating themselves up for getting hooked on this shit. Well, as a 47-year-old CPA, I may be the biggest moron on here.
I’ve always smoked pot at night and didn’t even like spice when I first tried. Then I learned when I woke up in the middle of the night stressed about work, the spice was the only thing that would instantly put me back down.
That was all I used it for some time, but you know how it goes…pot becomes less effective, and spice becomes more normal. After a while, the pot is useless, and all you want is spice.
I never lost my job or anything, but I was 24/7 outside of work, and I was so used to it nobody could tell. I’ve smuggled it on planes so I could be ok at family get-togethers, vacations, etc.
I’ve gone through customs with this garbage half a dozen times. I never got caught, but how idiotic is that? You simply cannot do without this shit once you’re hooked.
So here I am, three + years in and I finally kicked 5 days ago. I’m writing this now because this is the very first day that I’ve felt better than the last, and I now realize the worst is behind me.
For the previous 4 days, I would have hit it in a second if I had some (I let myself run out without reordering to get started), but today I seriously would just throw the shit away.
I don’t feel great yet, but I now see that I will be out of this. I smoked a natural marijuana joint this morning and actually got a little high from it for the first time in years.
Day one was not as bad as I thought.
Day two was HELL
Day two night was a fricken horror show. You’ve never been so hot and cold at the same time, and no human being has ever produced so much sweat.
Day 3 and 4 were more of the same, but the nights were getting relatively better.
Day 5 – HALLELUYA I’m finally getting somewhere!!!!
One other concern…if you have an alcohol habit, you’re going to struggle with that too because you simply will be unable to drink it with the spice withdrawal.
My advice to anyone is to just stop and get it over with. It sucks, but it’s relatively short-lived. Unlike other drugs, many come out on the other side without ever wanting to touch this garbage again. But don’t think you can manage your life while kicking.
You will need at least a week off of work or school. You simply will be too sick and rundown to function. But that very first day you feel a bit better, you will be so fricken happy that you’re finally getting this monkey off your back.