I have been smoking spice for nearly 2 years.
So somebody offered me bags of spice and I took them because I felt I’d be unable to sleep without cannabis.
This was the worst mistake of my life!!! Within a few days, I was smoking that stuff day and night because mentally and physically I felt its need badly.
I joined some support groups and after a year, I got honest and told them I was still smoking spice.
I also joined Narcotics Anonymous.
Quickly I needed to beg, steal and borrow to fund this bad habit.
I tried to stop it many times but I was successful in managing for a couple of days only and got it back again.
Currently, I haven’t taken it from last 3 days, the results are quite bad, and I haven’t eaten for 3 days as no appetite and haven’t slept at all either.
I’m constantly cold but sweating and feeling sick all the time.
Other than the physical withdrawals which I can cope with, it’s the mental obsession that I feel I need the stuff for and that’s why I can’t stop thinking about it 24/7.
I’m away on a holiday until tomorrow so it’s easier because I’m unable to buy any here, but tomorrow I will go home and that’s where the hard work is going to start.
I need to stay off this stuff.
I’m feeling so much better without it but it’s like the devil on my shoulder wants it so bad and it’s too hard!!!
To anyone, who’s thinking of taking this stuff please don’t and if you’re already addicted like me then join support groups, they definitely help you.
I’m trying to keep my head busy doing things to take my mind off from it and I hope to God, this time, I can stay off the shit for good.
It needs to be permanently banned and the people producing this stuff need to be stopped. It’s unreal how it’s ruining my life and of many others.