I’m a 55 year old old punk business woman from the UK.
I smoked weed for 20 years, but gave up when I had kids.
That meant I lost all contacts, and couldn’t get it.
I was then an alcoholic for 5 years, and I tried Spice in an effort to give up. It worked, I have not had a drink since.
BUT I have been smoking synthetic chemicals (cannabinoids) daily since 2009.
I started on 3g ready made packets from a Head Shop, rolling into a joint with tobacco.
But that was quite expensive, so I started ordering the pure chemical online.
I forget some of the names I’ve used over the years. JWH18, AM2201.
I once woke up with the paramedics trying to bring me round, but because I’m a middle aged mum, no one thought of drugs, so I ‘got away’ with it.
Then I bought powder 5F-PB22 for a year or so.
I’d get through maybe 5-10g powder per month, eyeballing it into a joint.
Then as that became harder to find, ahead of the new UK ban I most recently bought 15g of MMB-Chiminaca. I fell over when I eyeballed that, so I made it into a herbal smoke.
But finally, after my husband told me how much he missed me (we work together all day, but I was always stoned), I was ready to quit.
I’m doing it by cutting down, because I can’t take time of my business at the moment, and I want to STOP NOW.
I saw some of the physical torments people went through and wanted to avoid if I could.
I was smoking from 7am till 11pm, constant joints, 1 per half hour.
I knew I was addicted, but just because I could run my business didn’t mean I was OK.
I had not had a day free for 6 years.
I am 10 days in to quitting, cutting back. Got down to 2 joints.
Yesterday was my first day with none.
I am using an e cig with nicotine to help with the cravings, and I am already on anti-anxiety and anti depressants following a psychotic manic episode in 2010 (I bet that was caused by the drugs), so I’ve got some chemical help to quit.
It hasn’t been easy, but not as many physical symptoms as some stories I’ve read, and I feel SO committed to stopping (I thought I’d be trapped on it for life).
I will add to this post with any updates.
I am hoping that I won’t now want to admit on here if I slip back, and that will help me quit.
And it helped me to read the stories on here.
My first week has been both the hardest and best week of my life, at the same time.
Stop now, let’s do it together.