I was 37 years old the first time I tried spice and I thought I was going to die.
I began talking to a guy online that was from Ft. Wayne Indiana…he had alot of experience with different drugs and told me about herbal incense (spice) and about how it didn’t hurt you and you could go in the store and by it, it was legal. He also explained how they had banned it in Indiana but it was still legal where I lived.
Well to make a long story short after 2 months of talking he moved to where I lived…within the first 48 hours he was here, he knew where every store sold it and asked me to take him to get some, of course I did.
At first I was like no I don’t want to do it, I figured it couldn’t be as good as weed cause it was sold in a store. The only drugs I had ever done was weed, pills and have drank my share of alcohol, never anything else.
One night I decided to try it and I took 3 hits off of a joint, he tried to tell me to be easy cause it was stronger than weed but I didn’t listen to him. Immediately I felt it, my heart was racing, I was hot then I couldn’t move or feel anything, I just felt like I wasn’t even alive. All I could think was Oh my God, I’m dying. He had to calm me down and tell me just to hold on, that i would come down in a few minutes. I know it’s weird but that feeling hooked me right there.
I started doing it all the time with him mainly only at night before bed because it messed me up so bad I couldn’t function normally. After awhile he talked me into making our own, he had made some before and new the websites were we could order the chemical and the material, went to wal-mart to get the acetone and I was manufacturing a drug. Never in my life did I ever think I would do anything like that. We made it to sell but before we could sell it all, he had smoked 90% of it.
Needless to say, after 2 years we split up but I continued to smoke it….by this time I was doing it all day, everyday, even at work and it was taking more and more to get the same high. I was becoming forgetful, numb, making mistakes at work, staying in my room all the time, didn’t want to be with friends and family, just wanted to be high all the time. It was also taking all my money and I was getting in debt. I was also staying sick alot, sinus problems, insomnia, no appetite, and vomitting alot. I decided I’ve got to stop.
Well I did stop. The first day was ok, then I became violently ill, vomiting all day for almost 2 weeks, Highly agitated, couldn’t sleep, I’d go from crying to being angry, I had diarrhea, but the vomiting was the worst…again i thought I was going to die.
It takes a long time for this stuff to get out of your system…up to 3 weeks or more. It was the hardest thing I’ve ever been through and I still have the irritability and insomnia but not as bad and I still don’t know what long term effects those chemicals can do.
I almost lost my family and friends because of spice.
If you are doing any synthetic drug please stop and seek help now. It will kill you if you don’t, the withdrawals are hard, but once you get through it you will feel 100% better and normal again.
No one knows what these chemicals can do nor do we know what the material it sprayed on can do to our bodies.
I believe these drugs are worse than meth or heroine cause everyone thinks since you can buy it in a store it’s safe – but it’s not.
Get away from it before it’s to late.