I honestly have no idea where to start…
I’m 20 years old, and I am a spice, K-2 addict.
I’ve smoked marijuana since I was about 15 and always promised myself i would never do drugs. Except living in my part of the woods, drugs is neer hard to find.
I was first introduced to the drug K-2 by my boyfriend about 3 years ago. Then it was “Dragon Eye” (dangerous stuff, much different than whats out now) came in a little plastic circular container.
I took one hit…and thats all it took to make me trip that first time. I was then left alone outside screaming in a lawn chair that i was “falling”—that feeling of no control over your own mind. Of falling from yourself like you are falling from an airplane without a ‘chute. It was horrible. After stripping naked and a wendys cup fell from the sky, I said no more.
Except we tried it again by christmas time.
After months of being completely clean from pot and spice, I got seriously hooked on it. So addicted from this euphoria of just emotions and energy and sometimes i was a calm high. Even the occasional freak out (fall).
After years of damage to myself, money i’ve spent (average $8-$16 bags a day), and the many detoxes/relapses.
Honestly those are the worst experiences. Not getting that high and just coming to this deep depressive state of doing anything for that high.
Sometimes it’s all i want to do for hours, without eating for days. Sleeping through a night has become impossible, since you have to wake up every half hour to smoke. Its a never ending cycle of want-receive-need and some people don’t get lucky. They put some horrible no-labeled chemical in their body that causes mass hysteria and even suicide.
Every day, i wake up thinking about my next high, which is really hard to admit.
This stuff creeps up on your life like a parasite. You start off with a bag a week to 4-10 bags a week and a pile of ones that honestly did nothing but make you vomit for days. But you still smoke it.
I need help, but im not ready to sacrifice the one thing that is killing me and my relationships with family and friends.
Before you decide you want this to be your next 5 years of just coughing up black phlegm and feeling like your gonna get sick every time you cant get high.
Please be smart cause i obviously wasnt. This shit can kill you.