I was an on and off spice user for about five years, and it wasn’t until the last time I was using it that it really became a problem.
I moved in with a “buddy” of mine I used to work with, who was, and more than likely still is, a chronic spice user.
My friend re-introduced it to me in mid-2014, and from then on, I was hooked on it!
It got to the point that I literally overdrew the crap out of my bank account to feed my addiction, and was going out begging for money from complete strangers for spice. I would get my paycheck on Thursdays.
After paying my roommate $150 a week for what he said was for rent and bills (which he was really using it ALL for his own spice addiction), the rest of my money would go to spice, which would be resulting in spending roughly $300 a week for my habit.
Despite having multiple blackouts and seizures from smoking it, I was still doing it.
The withdrawal symptoms were horrible! I was extremely irritable, shaking, and throwing up when I didn’t have it, and I would do anything to get it, as well as I was on my way to the local corner store with a gun on me with intentions to rob the place (which, thank god, I didn’t go through with it).
It was an addiction that took ahold of me and felt like it wouldn’t let go, no matter how hard I tried.
Eventually in late January 2015, when I got fed up with begging and pleading for it when I didn’t have it, I decided to check myself into rehab.
That first few days I was in rehab was complete hell! I was going through the withdrawal symptoms worse than ever before and felt like I was going to die!
But with the help of counseling and medication, I was finally able to kick the habit!
I have been free from spice since early February 2015, and I couldn’t feel any better!
I just wanted to say to everyone out there that if you really want to get off the spice, you can (most likely with counseling and therapy if you feel you need to)!
If no one else believes in you, I do!
You can do anything you set your mind to!