My husband hid his addiction to spice from me for at least two years. We are now in year 4 or 5 battling this addiction. Our lives have been flipped upside down.
We have been together for ten years next month. I am afraid we will not see it together.I have tried being supportive and compassionate. I have tried everything.
I read some of these testimonies last night, and I am heartbroken that spice affects so many lives. I have been praying and anything else in between you could think.
He doesn’t see the problem. He blames me for everything. He always lies and is secretive. His body is so dependent on the chemicals that he wakes every couple hours in the middle of the night to smoke.
We have two children, and when he is not in what I refer to as zombie land, he is unbearable to be around and grouchy to the kids. He blames his PTSD for his need to escape reality.
I am losing my self-fighting for all of us and trying to love him through all of this. I have left it in God’s hands now. This morning before he went to work I told him I could no longer sit back and live a second-hand life because of his need to zone out.