My name is Michael. I have been struggling with substance abuse for a while now. If you can think of a drug, I have probably used it.
I tried Spice in my sophomore year of high school with a friend, because he was on probation. I didn’t really like it, so I didn’t buy it for a long time. It wasn’t until I was put on supervised probation that I looked for it.
When I tried it for the second time, I rolled a joint with some friends in the mountains. I took one hit and passed out for four hours.
When I came to, two of my friends had left and the other one told me that they were all yelling at me shaking me trying to wake me up. They even poured a bottle of water on me.
Ironically, I had been passed out through my substance abuse class. My educator knew I was up to something. I don’t know why I kept buying it, after that most people would have never done it again.
At first, I was functioning fine; but then it was interfering with life. I was constantly broke, and it was making me sick.
Every morning, I would wake up and take my shower. Before I could get out of the shower I would vomit, like clockwork.
I wouldn’t feel better until I smoked some spice. I remember I had to go talk to my substance abuse counselor, and I could see the fear in her eyes and she told me whatever I was doing was ruining my life.
One of my coworkers actually said he only gives me two months to live.
This worked for a while, but now I’m off of those UA’s and back on the spice.
I don’t know what to do. I just can’t stay clean, and this is my only option to get high. I always feel anxious when I’m sober, waiting to get high.
If anyone has some advice please comment.