My husband had been smoking this awfulness for about 4 yrs total.
Since about 2013, it has been bad – he was caught DWI in Feb 2014, and since then, it has become worse and worse.
He cannot eat without it, can’t sleep without it, he can’t function without it or even with it, when he doesn’t have it.
He has become moody and remains sick and has lost so much weight.
He has got in trouble more than once with the law because of his actions if he is not having it.
He just got a new job and he promised that he will be going to stop it today.
It is his last day of smoking he says, but I know he will never stop it and that scares me more and more.
I’m so depressed, feeling angry that he chooses this over us, being happy together.
I refrain from being with family because they can tell when he’s high and it’s embarrassing and I don’t want to hear my mom asking me what’s wrong with him.
When he’s high, I constantly keep yelling and telling him things but he only shows affection when he’s on it or in trouble because of it.
I tell him if he doesn’t show affection when sober not to show it when he’s high.
His drug abuse is making me bitter and so livid.
Once, he had no more for the night he takes a shower and goes straight to the bed and completely ignored me.
I’m so tired – mentally, emotionally – and physically that anger takes a lot out of me.
He’s counting on me hoping I’ll be there for all of his problems when in turn he’s never there for me.
I enable him just, so, I don’t feel so lonely and so, I don’t have to see his mood swings.