It all started 18 days ago.
I have been stuck in a loop.
I have seen a doctor, and they have no idea what’s happening because they cannot test for it.
I have been admitted to mental hospital to recover, and that’s not helping because it damaged my brain!
First-time user, because my friends introduced it to me.
How cool it was, to be the test animal – and now, I have no way out of the nightmares it inflicts on me and my family.
Know that I cannot type this because I am unable to focus on the right now – my subconscious is my reality.
Those who you are, but not you…
I am only human, and my mind maybe gone for ever!
I had a great life a family that loves me, a job that is awesome for someone my age I am an honor role student at my night classes all of the age of 20.
I am scared I am not me – I am something else.
The m…frs that made this and claim it’s great need to pay for their greed and non value of human life.
I do hope that the DEA and law makers stop these people for making this terrible, terrible, terrible drug.
There is no cure!
Hopefully, time will allow my brain to heal and some day return from this darkness. And I get my life, my family back …
In hopes that I have the strength to not worry about the things I cannot change and the power to change the things I can!
The sadness, the darkness, of the mistake I made trying to make it back feels hopeless.
Spots of my memory are gone.
I get to a point and nothing cannot recall basic things as simple as taking a shower or going to bathroom.
I have extreme thirst and hunger, but unable to eat or sleep for days and days.
Manic behavior for no reason – thinking I got this, but have no idea how to come back …
No one understands, because I am unable to speak, I only stare intently.
Thank you friends of mine… thank you for this hurt, this pain and this endless misery.