I need help; I’ve been using anti-depressants and weed for two years, antidepressants (pregabalin) twice to 3 times a week. I smoke weed daily but not too heavily. I used to hate Spice until I tried it again and I fell in love with it.
I stopped my weed and started smoking spice only till next week. I realized I’m hooked, and keep telling myself it’s the last bag. I consume Spice two months now and can’t stop myself from it.
When it’s not there, I cry, I feel sick and depressed. I remember every single negative thing in my life. I’ve had two suicidal attempts, and I still consider it every night spice is not there or any other alternative.
I don’t have any quilting groups in my area, it’s a small city, everything in my life is against me, I’m an over thinker. I over think every single thing in my life, even small and stupid things.
I lost half of my hair, and I’m 20 years old. Sometimes, I’m bipolar, for no reason out of nowhere. I feel like am happy and everything is positive, and significant energy grows in me, but that’s only till I realize.
Why am I so excited? And I go back to my usual mood, am I addicted or am I mentally ill? The idea of going to a psychiatrist scares me, I’ve never been to a psychiatrist, I can’t ask help from my big brother because I call him every time.
I am super depressed at night crying, after a while, I realized he doesn’t care and feel everybody is lying, and everybody is a hypocrite, hope I can take your attention and help.