I quit smoking natural marijuana two months ago to seek a better job. I had been smoking daily heavily for 8 years (started smoking at 13).
When spice first came out, I was 14. I was very skeptical. Even when it became popular in high school, I shunned it and its users. I watched 3.5 GPA students with perfect attendance go to straight Fs without caring, wearing dirty wrinkled clothes, or just not come to class at all – but even being a pothead, I would still go to school, and maintain a 3.0 GPA-
However, in my junior year, financial crisis hit my family. I decided that a GED would have to do so that I could join the workforce to help my mom.
I got a job easily at a fast food joint, which SUCKED. I kept switching fast food joints, trying to find one that I could like, but they are all the same. I am currently employed at a suck burger joint now, and I know that The only way to elevate is to clear my system of THC.
My friend “Z” (who is on probation and is subject to frequent drug testing) had been smoking spice regularly for about 4 months, and appeared to handle it well.
“People been goin’ to the hospital and dying ’cause they smoke too hard and roll big blunts. I smoke small joints only. I never had a bad trip. The dose is the poison.”
Explanations like this from him, and never seeing him actually trip out, is what finally got me to try the devil’s version of marijuana. Here’s what happened.
12-2-14 – 1:00pm
I tried spice for the first time with Z in his car.
It was a GREAT experience: We laughed our buns off, joked, and really enjoyed music. I even got the munchies and ate about 4 honey buns. It was just like weed, but I only hit it twice, and it only lasted ~45 minutes. Z dropped me off with a 4g bag of “scooby snax” and told me if I needed any more then he would sell it to me.
2:30pm – I roll a very small joint and smoke by myself for the first time. I decided that I wanted to play video games. I sit down and grab the controller, only to be frozen for 20 minutes by thoughts of me attacking people with a machete (mutilating family members that I really love!!!!) for NO reason! Once I snap out of it, I call Z to tell him about this experience. Z says “dude you’re high, shake it off.” So I did.
I became locked in a cycle: smoke, play xbox, eat junk, play xbox, fall asleep, repeat. This was the only thing I wanted to do. Any interruption of this cycle by anything/anybody would be met by swift aggression. I would only take naps, no overnight sleeping.
12-3-14 – ~9:00am
I finally decide to do some personal hygiene to get ready to go grocery shopping. I make it to the store and get high in the parking lot.
Once i’m high, I feel like I look like an alien compared to everybody else, and feel too shy to go into the store. Being that I NEVER have self-esteem issues and im always the most outgoing person in a group, I knew that some kind of way the spice had destroyed my self-esteem just that fast, but the high was so addictive that I spend the next 2 hours trying to talk myself into going, while smoking every 20 minutes, only to start the car and go home and play xbox. No groceries thanks to spice.
The only time I leave my room after this is to grab more spice from Z. The cycle continues. Every time I smoke after this experience, I feel guilty every second, knowing that I should quit this horrible mystery substance. But the feeling is so addictive.
12-4-14 – ~1:00pm
I’m out of spice so I call Z, who says he’ll be out of spice until late that evening. This aggravates me. I start to cut open the empty spice bag to scrape what little was left out of the corners.
By 4:00pm, im down to my boxers with the fan blowing directly onto me, sweating beans.
By 6pm i punched a wall. My mom heard this and came to check on me with a glass of ice water, but I slap it out of her hands and tells her to go **** herself for no reason. My mom and I get along well and have a great relationship, so when this happens she runs out of the room crying, which aggravates me even more. I hadnt eaten anything since early that morning.
At ~9:30 I go to the bathroom and crap straight diarrhea water.
Z comes through around after midnight. I roll up as fast as I can. After the usual 2 hits dont get me high, I take 2 bigger hits.
BAD IDEA. As soon as I die the joint out I get very dizzy and nauseated. I head back to the bathroom and do some dry heaves, then have to fall asleep on the floor for an hour.
I wake up still feeling high, so I dont go smoke again.
I lay in my bed with my phone and start searching for places to buy my own spice online. Some of the results google return show something about withdrawals, so I decide to google spice withdrawals and start reading up. I start to get scared by what im reading.
Then I come across this site and begin reading people’s posts. After reading only four posts, I flush the remaining spice down the toilet and thank the good Lord for this website. I cant sleep cause my body wants to get high so bad so I spend the whole night watching re-runs and reading posts.
i really wanted to get high, so I search my ashtray for joint roaches. As i’m rolling up i feel my stomach turn. I go to the bathroom, straight diarrhea water again, which encourages me to flush the roaches too. I spend the whole day and the next day (12-6) in my room fighting hot flashes and cravings, weak but still no appetite
body so weak that i force myself to eat. Diarrhea is better, still having hot flashes. Still cant sleep but reading and writing keeps my mind off of everything.
12-8 to Present (12-9, 4:15am)
hot flashes gone. Still cant sleep. Decided to share my story on here to help another person like me that doesn’t know what they’re getting into. Absolutely NO cravings or desires to smoke spice! Even The thought of the smell disgusts me!
Thanks to this website, I have been able to veer off of a horrible road before I went too far down!
I deeply thank the creator of this site, and an even BIGGER THANKS TO EVERYBODY THAT SHARED THEIR STORY! YOU GUYS SAVED MY LIFE!!
IM TYPING THIS IN TEARS!!!! NOW I CAN SAVE MY BUDDY Z BEFORE ITS TOO LATE!!
GOD BLESS ALL OF YOU AND ONCE AGAIN FROM THE BOTTOM OF MY HEART THANK YOU!!! I KNOW THIS IS LONG BUT PLEASE POST IT!!! THANKS AGAIN FOR SAVING MY LIFE AND STOPPING ME FROM INFLUENCING SOMEONE ELSE TO SMOKE THIS HORROR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!