I am a 28 year old from NC, USA and was addicted to spice Bizzaro for over 4 years now.
I first started out using so I can pass a drug test at work. I would get random tested and thought this was an ok answer to my problem.
Well was I wrong, when I did not have any I would scheme so hard on how to get $20 for a 3.5 gram bag.
It got to the point I was smoking a bag a day, and if I had 2 bags I would smoke 2 bags a day. I found myself always thinking of getting high, getting out of bed at night to get high, getting high before work, and when at work just thinking of getting off to get high.
I was so addicted I would call of work to stay home so I can be high all day, I lost good jobs over $14 a hour, not caring about what happened in life, long as had my spice I was good.
When I didn’t have any my mind would race, and I would be miserable, have cold sweats and would fine myself going to the tobacco shop getting some stuff fronted or I would be at the pawn shop pawning whatever I could.
I finally decided this was so stupid. Only 30 min after running out and deciding to quit, I was sweating from head to toe and I was freezing cold, so cold I would take my blanket and put it over the heating vent in the house just to stay warm.
Ended up at the hospital the first 2 days. My blood pressure was 220/120, they though I was having a stroke or a heart attack, I couldn’t stop shaking, I was so cold.
My wife has dealt with this and has watched me go down in health, afraid she was going to get up on morning and find me dead in my chair, with my bowl in my lap.
Spice would not even get me really high anymore, but your body grows to need it.
Luckily I have the best wife in the world and she has stuck with me through this crap, I don’t no why I wouldn’t quit for anybody or anything.
I can tell you this guys and gals: you are not going to stop if you are not 100% wanting too.
I lost 40lb in 9 days, and still to this day really don’t have too much of an appetite. But after about a week I started to eat just a little bit. I stopped throwing up after about 4 days, I couldn’t sleep more then 15 mins at a time for the first 7 days. I only got maybe a total of 2 hours sleep a day.
I can say after a week clean, I started to feel much better. I have actually got a full 8 hours sleep the past few days, and sleeping is getting much better. My whole body felt really really out of whack till about day 7. My face felt numb and food taste awful in my month.
I was a zombie on that stuff, I love the outdoors hunting and fishing, when on that I never left home to do anything.
I told my family and some of my best friends, for support, which is important. You have to have a support system, stay busy hanging out with friends, watch a movie, play a video game, get out the house.
Spice will change everything about you, the way you think, your attitude, and from someone that is very social, your turn into a zombie and a not likable person.
If you want to quit you can do it. If I can, anyone can, trust me on this guys.
Give it a week clean and you will feel soooo much better and will be happy you did so.
Reading these stories helped me know there were others going through the same thing and is a great tool to help you.
I really hope I can help someone make the best choice of their life. Trust me your not only killing yourself your killing others that care about you.
One more thing: if you believe in God, talk to him, he answers prayers. He has for me.
I beg anyone reading this: please stop, it’s bad stuff and anyone out there that needs someone to talk to, reach out to me or someone on this site. Just remember, you have to be 100% committed to quitting to win this battle.